Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Forgotten Blessings

     This morning I wake up.

     I see the mess in my room, my dog is barking loudly. I smell the dirty trash truck billowing down the street. I stand up. My limbs are sore today, and my hair is knotted. I want to mope, whine; groan. But a thought strikes me, a thought so simple yet so overwhelming.

     I woke up.

     I have eyes that see, ears that hear, a nose that smells.

     I can stand, walk, move. I have hair on my head.

     God has so blessed me, and I so often forget it. His generous blessings surround me. Not just His common grace in my everyday life, but His infinite love and mercy as He looks on Christ's perfect life and satisfactory death, instead of my imperfections. Though I'm sinful and wretched, God sees a clean slate, a perfect record. He sees Christ in my stead.

     I am completely unworthy; so blessed.




Wednesday, September 17, 2014

A Spider

I don't mind looking at bugs and admiring God's handy work, but spiders gross me out. Well, at least the big ones do.

     This morning mom tells me there is a spider in the garden. I know right away that if she's talking about it, it has got to be big. But big is an understatement. I'm not too far across the lawn and I can already see it. And wow, what a beautiful spider—as long as it stays where it is, right where I can see it, and a good distance away. Its about as big as my big toe. About as big as my thumb.
     "You should take some pictures of it, Laura," mom says. Oh boy. I don't want to get close too that thing, but I guess it would be good photography practice. I take my time getting my camera together. I'm not in a huge hurry to get more acquainted with that grossly large Arachnid. But here I am, squatting down next to this gigantic spider, clicking my camera away in his face. He doesn't seem bothered by it, but I'm hoping with every part of me that he doesn't dash away into the bushes, that he doesn't move at all. I'm sure I'll scream if he does. Besides, I want him to stay where I can see him; spiders are just so much scarier when you can't. Before long, I find my self climbing in to the bushes behind him, getting shots of his underside. He's got another bug grossly wrapped up in his grasp, but he isn't doing anything with it. And I'm fine as long as he doesn't do anything with it.
     I'm satisfied with the pictures I got, and head back toward the house. I show some to my mom, and change my lens. I'm walking back out to garden, more comfortable and confident than the first time I came out to take pictures. I take a couple snaps, adjust the camera for the lens and continuously moving sun. I squat down to get another shot. I look through my lens; I start  focusing. But the moment that large beast comes into focus, I see his short front legs ripping at the grossly wrapped up bug, and his little head all twisting and clawing at it. I stand and turn away. My stomach is trying to take a journey up to my mouth, and my limbs are all crawling and prickling at me. I'm done. I can't take anymore pictures of that spider. I walk to the house, grossed out and cringing from what I just saw. I put my camera away, and just simply say, "I'm done. No more."
     I got close to that spider, closer then was comfortable. But I did it. And just seeing the detail in the pattern—the design, the colors—I was truly amazed by God's creation. God is the Creator, Maker, and Sustainer of all things. It's easy to forget the significance of those simple truths. The simple truth that creation cries out to the glory of its Maker. Our very bodies proclaiming a perfect design and Designer, while our minds leak with resentment and denial. But we are His creation, we are His handy work, and all things will work for His purpose and for His glory, even in the midst of sin and decay.


“Ask the animals, and they will teach you, or the birds of the air, and they will tell you; or speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish of the sea inform you. Which of these does not know that the hand of the Lord has done this? In his hand is the life of every creature and the breath of all mankind.”
Job 12:7-10











Thursday, July 17, 2014

One Day Prior to the 4th

Last year, as a celebration for Oceanside's 185th birthday, the city put on a firework show. They were obviously not prepared for the results they got. Cars jammed tightly into the small business parking lots, mobs of people swarming around, trying to find a decent view to watch the show. We thought finding our way in was hard, but little did we consider the trek out. I will spare you the details, and just leave you with the fact that it was nearly 45 minutes after the show ended that we even started heading to our car. That was last year; that was the 3rd; one day prior to the 4th of July.

     This year, as the first few days of July are to rolling into view, we are already planning to attend the firework show. Our next-door neighbor will go with us again, like she did last year. We hear the city is more prepared this year, with venders, so people can buy food, and traffic control people, with their orange vests and colored flashlights. It will be a big production.  We are more prepared, too. We are taking our chairs, which we failed to think of last year, and plenty of snacks and blankets. Some of our friends from church are going to come too. When they get to our house we all pile into our Minnie Van and journey over to the business districts. We arrive nearly an hour and a half early. There aren't too many people around, but we know that will change as the clock ticks on.
     We take a stroll up one of the blocked off roads. Venders line the curb, selling every different kind of food I can recall. I'm attracted to the aroma of kettle corn, and Mom and Dad say we can get some. But we'll get it closer to when the fireworks start, that way it'll be fresh and warm. There are people selling t-shirts, others doing music and karaoke. People are already camping out on the street, trying to get the best view they possibly can of the bare hillside behind the venders. We mosey around a bit as we wait for our friends to get their dinner, and I enjoy the different sights and scenes that unfold around me; the bickering families, jovial children and the couples that roam hand in hand, obviously lost in a daze. 
     It always baffles me; the large amount of people in the world. It's easy to get caught up in my own little bubble; how I feel, what I want. Easy to forget there are so many other people around me, with individual personalities, thoughts and souls. As the thick crowds press in around me, so does the staggering reality of how big my God is, as a creator and keeper of this people. He's made each one of these people, and knows them personally; individually. The thought make me feel small; it humbles me. A small person serving a big God; I guess that's the best place to be.
     The sun now begins to dip beneath the hills, leaving behind it a pale orange sky. Slowly the orange daylight fades to a dull gray, and I know the firework show will start soon. We settle into our seats, snug with thick blankets wrapped warmly around our legs, munching on freshly popped kettle corn. We enjoy laughing and chatting with our friends, till suddenly the first loud boom shakes us with shock. Everyone's eyes are immediately forced up to where the glittering explosion dances through the night sky. Then one after another the fireworks scatter shinning parks everywhere, lighting up the dark night around us with each loud blast. Everyone "Oo's" and "Ah's" and we call out which ones are our favorites. 
     I decide that my favorite is the big white one, so loud and powerful that I can feel it pound in my chest, my chair and the very pavement below me quivering under its overwhelming strength. It's one thing to see a pretty firework with glittering sparks, but it's something completely different to feel it; its vibrating, rattling intensity tearing its way to my very core. It reminds me how worldly things glitter, gleam and attract on the surface, but it is only the One True God, and living Scripture that are bursting with life and satisfaction; that are capable of rattling me to the very core and changing me from the inside out.  It makes me love that massive white explosion the most.
     Immediately after the show ends the crowd around us erupts into an overwhelming applause. We wait around awhile, enjoying each others fellowship as we wait for the crowds to thin. After basically everyone is gone and we are some of the only ones left in the dark business district, we pack up are stuff and head to the car. Though the time was fun, and the fellowship with brothers and sisters in Christ sweet, it's undeniably pleasant to come home to a quiet and peaceful home. As we settle in for the night I am thankful to God for providing yet another blessed day, with friends, family, and fun events, on the 3rd; one day prior to the 4th.






Monday, July 7, 2014

Because I'm Turning Seventeen

Who asks for a surprise party? Well, I did. I didn't think I would get one either.
  
     As my birthday approaches I try to be less observant, not to snoop or pry; I try to subdue my curiosity level. Those things come so natural, though; it's hard for me. But as each day shifts closer and closer to the 13th my ears become sharper and I automatically become more aware of detail. I try to ignore things, not to question or be suspicious. But even though I try not to pay attention to things, I can't help myself; I hear every word, notice every glance; my curiosity is fighting to break loose. But what is there to be suspicious of? Nothing is any different from normal; no one acts strange. 
     Every Friday we go up to the Solis' house, just to have fun and hang out. This year the 13th is a Friday; this week at Friday Fun Day it will be my birthday. But I don't think anything of it. Nothing is any different from normal, no one acts strange. For about the past six years something is always happening on my birthday; something big, and always something different. I wasn't planning on things to be off beat from the normal strange, so I naturally thought nothing of it when I plan to spend my birthday up at the Solis' house. In fact, I'm excited about it!
     It's the 13th; it's Friday. It's my birthday. Mom makes a wonderful breakfast with an elegantly decorated table. It is a pleasantly calm morning. Dad eats with us and then leaves for work; we get ready to go to Friday Fun Day. My curiosity is burning, I notice detail. I want to think there might be a surprise party waiting for me up at the Solis' house. But I tell myself there isn't. After all, nothing is any different from normal; no one acts strange. We get in the car and go. I try not to be suspicious when mom or Julia text. I try not to notice detail. I tell myself nothing is happening, after all, nothing is any different from normal; no one acts strange.
     We pull up to the Solis' house. I'm excited cause I see Renae's car. She doesn't come to Friday Fun Day all the time. My eyes automatically search for any unusual vehicles; I don't see any. I watch to see if Emily comes out to greet us like normal. She does. I notice the blinds are closed on the front windows, but I don't think much of it. After all, nothing is any different from normal; no one acts strange. We say our regular hello to Emily and head toward the house. Julia and Emily go in first. I walk in the front door and notice colorful streamers hanging in front of the entrance to the Family Room. I notice balloons on the floor. I don't think it's too weird; it is my birthday. But then I see my friends. A balloon pops somewhere, the loud bang adding to yells of "surprise!" I'm overwhelmed. I want to laugh, but my eyes fill up with tears instead. I want to run toward the friends I haven't seen in months and hug them. But I can't. Instead I just stand there awkwardly with a stupid smile on my face. More of my friends are here than I could have imagined. I feel loved; I know I'm loved. And I love all these precious people.
     God has blessed me beyond measure with the friends that now stand around me.  Each one of them has played a distinct role in my life, and I appreciate them all individually. As I spend the day with them, playing sports, enjoying a wonderful dessert, I am overwhelmed with thankfulness to God for their presence in my life.

     Who asks for a surprise party? Well, I did, and I got one too. Was I expecting it? To be honest, I wasn't. Yes, I noticed little things, but in the end I was still thoroughly surprised.
     Yeah, I know I'm different, I know I'm weird. But what can I say? I was born on Friday the 13th; I've got a reputation to live up to!



Monday, June 16, 2014

Sequoia Vacation

     We leave the house at one o'clock in the afternoon. It was a stressful morning of packing, but we are finally on the road. It's a long drive, but I'm looking forward to it. I love road trips. We get up to Sequoia National Park the next day, and are thrilled to be there and set up camp. Julia and I sleep in the tent. Dave and Renae share our campsite, and Andrew and Anna are a few sites away. The weather is just perfect all week long. It couldn't be better.
       The first couple of days up at 7,000 feet are difficult. The hiking is a much more pleasant once my body gets used to the elevation. We go to see Crystal Cave, Crescent Meadow, General Grant Tree, and an amazing waterfall. We see nearly eleven bears on the trip; more than any other trip we've been on! We get lots of relax time, and I even find time to read.
     But the most blessed part of this trip is getting to spend time with my family. We are blessed to all be knit together by the love of Christ, and all share in the fellowship of His salvation. As we spend this time together we get to know each other better, and grow closer to one another. God is using this trip to teach me many things. I wasn't expecting this camping trip to be a sanctuary for learning, but God's ways are not my ways, and I praise Him for it!
      As I enjoy the creation around me, and see God's presence everywhere, I am continually being reminded of God's greatness and awesome power. I am overwhelmed that such a holy and just God extends His love to my heart and makes me His child. As I enjoy these days out in the Sequoia Forest, I am reminded of Psalm 57:9-10 which says "I will give thanks to You, O Lord, among the peoples; I will sing praises to You, among the nations. For Your steadfast love is great to the heavens, and Your faithfulness to the clouds."














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Saturday, June 7, 2014

We're Going to the Zoo

             Julia and I are home alone. I'm really looking forward to a relaxing day; just being at home and getting some things done that have been sitting around for far too long. But those pleasant hopes are shattered when Julia gets a random call from Dave and Renae. They apparently want to take us somewhere. I am a little disappointed at first, but the disappointment it is quickly replaced with happiness as I hear that they are taking us to the Safari Park. I feel guilty that I was disappointed at all; I should have been thankful. I've been wanting to go for years now, and I'm thrilled beyond words that I finally get to! On top of that, Renae tells us that Mom and Dad are going to buy us year passes! Julia and I have loads of fun at the Zoo. We create many new memories, and enjoy ourselves silly. We have so much fun, and can't stop talking about it for days after. I'm looking forward to the next time we go, and am thanking God for such a wonderful and unexpected gift!